he said he doesnt want to talk about it.
yet after 30 seconds he starts.

he demands an answer,
yet when receiving 1,
he takes it as an argument.

every good church day has to end with a shit emotion.
how i wish i could just call some random number and
empty my troubles to the other party.

hiaz. no one to talk to... (besides the monkey clarence gave me)hahas.
yeah. trying to me a self entertainted person who feels
no sorrow.

stressed level is almost nil during the norm.
but onces it piles up, it floods.
only 1 thing stresses me now. and its bad.

wanna get rid of the problems.
but it seems so tough.

and BTW. if you think this is emo, please dont.
im not and never will be. just that its a
tough night and this partial paragraph
helps to ease it a little(:

SUDDEN URGE OF MUSIC!
gaming's currently out of my life.
hopefully it stays that way.

piorities in life
1) fitness
2) music

for some reason after breaking my
current guitar, it seems to spark
a hunger to learn more about music.

cant wait to get my hands on my new
guitar hopefully next week!

gonna be a maestro!(its a brand btw)

hiaz.. f*** it.. just broke my takamine guitar.


ARgh! it was my 1st guitar that lasted with me for
almost 2 years already.. and it had to spoil in a
f***ing bad way.

YES!!! FINALLY! im going to WORK! Amen.
haha!

oh well. its an irony, when your working, you
want a holiday. when youve got 1, you dont want
it anymore.

oh well. at least there'll be a structure in my 1 month.

OK! heres the funny version of the WOUNDERGIRLS "NOBODY"!

i recommend you watch the orginal before the funny one.
it kinda makes more sense.

L4D overdose....

played like almost 4 hours of it today.
getting a migrain thanks to the shabby
lighting in the game. honestly they
should provide spotlights instead of
torches.
its freaking pathetic.

thanks the the super-not-user-friendly
key changes, we all had some crappy names.

eg: bob,yang,timo all the names some lame people
used before us.

oh well... if my cousin(nat) had a talent(not considering pissing people off, of which she does so often), it would be her painting.
she sent me a picture of her paiting this afternoon.
i must say its pretty good. too bad ive got no idea how to
upload it. *yes, im a blog idiot.
so nat, if your reading this, you may just want to teach
me how to over msn.

exam period is coming soon... everyones mugging and
studying... damn.

Right.

now for the right mindset.

Army is my new motivation for Gym
faith is the new reason for reading
pursing is a reason for interaction.

damn. many holidays messed up my clock.
mistaken friday for a thursday.
talking to damien in that mindset was classic.
HAHAS! too bad i dint take down the conversation!

its been almost a week and im still unemployed.
damn. pity those people that lost their jobs
recently and have a family to support.
oh well. lets see what jobs i'll get...

tomorrow definitly seems to be a better day.
everything is planned out nicely for me to
excute. structure is key i suppose.

anyway. now im reluctant about Commando.
no idea should i tell them during the test that i
dont want to enter.

Pros: -5 years lesser reservice
-dont mind trying something different
-good incentive to get fit

Cons: -if im out of course (im screwed)
*i would have to suck it up in infantry
-if i dont pass out, i wont get pay (screwed up system)
-worried i dont have the balls to jump of a bloody plane.

oh well. lets see how it goes while i think through about this.
thank God that at least ive got 2 weeks to decide about it.

i happend to pass by this Video on youtube.
regard the beatboxing of the lion king.
pretty cool stuff.

heres for you guys to enjoy(:

MOM AND I HAD FISHES EATING DEAD SKIN OFF OUR LEGS! OMG!
the feeling was ticklish. i honestly think the fishes did a real good joke in eating
the dead skins off my feet. but mom wasnt impressed by the slightest.__.
and yes, the fishes dint die... just grew fatter alittle.

time to blurt some crap stuff...

you seem to be drifting further away.
once so close but now to distant.
hopefully we'll get to know each other
alittle better.
hopefully the time isnt in the distant.

Alright!

Here goes another blog.

non of the blogs seem to last long enough.

just received my VOCATIONAL ASSESSMENT NOTICE!
WHAT THE HECK!
according to Google(the "awsomest") website, its a camp
to test and spot people for commando's.

ironically, thats the LAST VOCATION I WAS LOOKING AT!
even being a clerk was infront of a commando.

its really funny how sometimes the more you dont want it the more
you get of it? like an hour before i realise that it was a commando camp,
my mom was making a like huge joke of how i'll never get into commando
because of my spects. my degree is around like 275 and commando's accept
until 300.

and *POOF* God sent me a commando letter-.- (thanks God for disproving my mum)
oh well. see how it goes. im not that fit. doubt i'll go in. but it'll be real cool if i do though.
heard from my dad that you'll only need to serve 5 years re-service (instead of 10).

oh well. just hope i dont embrasses myself during the test. bet i'll see like
huge people there.

lets see where I go! test is in 2 weeks. better go train alittle... ate too much man.